Sunday, February 28, 2010

Into the Dark

Well guys, it was nice while it lasted but I'm officially run out of hope and am heading towards the dark. I'm getting those all too familiar twinges that usually start around 10 dpo. This weekend was a complete mind f*ck too because something was definitely going on with my chest...super sore, and not just your average period sore. I can still remember when my boobs felt like when I was preggers (since that was really the only symptom I had a chance to experience) so I committed it to memory...and this was pretty frickin close.

This weekend consisted of me constantly pushing on them to make sure they were still as sore as the last time, and pinching my nipples (which also hurt like hell). But now these twinges are really messing with head, and I just have no idea how I'm going to make it to Wednesday for my beta. Which I know I'll make it to because I'm on progesterone, which delayed my period last month, and I'm technically going in a day or two early because I leave for Florida that night.

So 3 more days, and we'll know. And not only will I know if I'm preggers or not, but whether I will start my journey down the IVF road. Ahhhh, that thought is still very overwhelming right now. But thank you so much for your super kind comments on my last post, your support means more than you know!!

20 comments:

lowfatlady said...

*hugs* I am sorry the phantom symptoms are playing tricks on you. I hope this week flies by and you get good news.

Secret Sloper said...

I was exactly where you are with the boob thing--they practically had bruises from how frequently I was pinching and poking them!

I'm hoping your intuition is off and you'll get a wonderful surprise on Wednesday.

JC said...

Ugh I know these little symptoms that mess with your mind and I know the effed up ones that make you think it's over. I have a lot of hope for you and I'm really hoping you get good news before your trip. I hope this week goes by fast for you.

Al said...

Ugh, I hate the symptom mind f*ck. Hoping like crazy over here that you get a BFP this week and don't even have to think about IVF!! Hang in there this week!

Just Me...C said...

Ahhh the infamous mind f*@%! So sorry you are going through this. It stinks and its such an emotional roller coaster that no one deserves. I also took the progesterone supplements which made me swear I was preggers every dang time, not to mention it delayed my perfect and ever so reliable 28 day cycle..yet another mind f%$@!. Hang in there hon.

AplusB said...

I think the soreness is a very good sign...I know these last few days are pure torture, so try to hang in there. I am very hopeful for you! At least you know that you're going to sunny Florida in a few days, no matter the outcome.
Thinking of you this week!!

Jennifer said...

So sorry about all the crazy symptoms. You can make it to Wed. I'm hoping it will be a good news day. Thinking about you!

Jane said...

Try to hang in there. Ugh, I know those last few days are such torture!!! Hope all your symptoms turn out to be really positive ones! Fingers crossed for you!

Ashley said...

Just a few more days! I still have my fingers crossed for you that this is!!

suchagoodegg said...

Hang in there, 2 more days, you can do it! I think the sore boobs is a fantastic sign. I've never had the pleasure of experiencing that (haha), but since it's symptom #1, I know I couldn't help but be super duper hopeful if it happened. Nurture that hope!!

subfertilefrugalista said...

Thinking of you and hoping for the best!! Hoping, too, that the days go quickly so that you can find out soon. I know it has to be hard. Lots of love and hugs your way. Hang in there.

Crossed Fingers said...

Sending lots of T&P your way. The 2ww sucks - it's hard and long and each one seems to get harder even as it gets "easier" to accept. I hope your test yield the results we're all holding our breath for!

Katie said...

Only a few more days. I'm sending lots of T&P your way.

Littlest True Blue said...

Soooo stressful! I hate the last few days! Stay strong! I'm thinkin' BFP!!!!
:)LTB

Chelle said...

I just read this and your last post. Holy crap girl, I pray you are pregnant! I pray you don't end up going down the IVF road.

I know what you mean with the roller coaster analogy, mine just crested and I'm on my way down the slope. I'll be waiting for you at the bottom where hopefully you will have some awesome news.

*fingers crossed!*

Browniris said...

I'm so sorry that you are starting get those unwelcome twinges, too. They are the worst! I hope that things go well on Wednesday and you are able to get some happy news instead!

Andrea said...

Hey there Miss Adorable,

I can relate to the "boob checks" and evaluating all the signs. AND the crazy thoughts that seem to swirl in our heads. While its all natural (btw, gave up on the word Normal a long time ago) its mind bending, complicated and exhausting.

I'm holing onto HOPE for you and holding your hand in the dark, as I won't let you walk alone :) I also refuse to let you be defeated. One step at a time...

Many prayers this is your "moment"

Much Love
Andrea

Hannah said...

Oh, hoping with you! Can't wait to hear about a positive!

Just call me "K" said...

It made me laugh to read the part of you poking your boobs and such as I do the exact same thing. In the car, on the couch, at my desk.... If someone ever caught me they would think I'm freaky. :) Good luck! Fingers crossed!!

R.J. said...

Ah, to hope or not, that is the question. I say keep the hope, the disappointment will be there for a BFN no matter what.

BTW, the injectables combined w/ the trigger shot and prometrium give me some VERY sore boobies. Not to mention the rest of the symptoms that mirror Pg symptoms. It sucks.

The twinges can absolutely be a good thing!!