Monday, January 18, 2010

Just Waiting


Waiting...ugh, I HATE that word. It seems like with IF you're always waiting for something, your next u/s, your next iui, and let's not even get started on the TWW. And then once we get preggers we still have 9 more months of waiting to meet that baby we've been trying so hard to create. Ahhh, will it ever end?!? I"m seriously getting exhausted already...and I want a baby NOW!

And what kills me the most is I feel like waiting is what got me into this situation, I totally got the baby bug about 2 years before we actually started trying. But hubby and I thought what's the rush, we'll have kids for the rest of our lives...why not enjoy our time alone for a couple more years. So we waited until we moved to the burbs, waited until we had more in savings, waited until we got back from our (AMAZING) trip to Costa Rica last winter. I know I can't change the past, and I really am grateful for some amazing times with just me and hubby. I just hate feeling like I"m getting punished, when I was just trying to be responsible in the first place. Can't a girl get a break!

So for now I"m waiting for Friday to come, actually I can't wait for Friday...and praying that my 100mg clo.mid bumped out an extra follie for me. One day down, three to go...I can do it, I can do it!!!

13 comments:

Ashley said...

Waiting is SOOO hard. I'm right there with you. We didn't even wait that long to have start trying and I still feel guilty. Hoping the next few days go by quickly for you!

Bean stalk ballads said...

Right here with you. Waiting is terribly difficult. sending warm thoughts your way and hoping your wait gets easier.

suchagoodegg said...

Yep, same thing for us. I've been ready since we got married (we've been dating since age 21, got married at 27) but it took hubs a couple more years (almost three on the dot, to be exact) to come around. And I didn't push it...I knew saving up and traveling and running marathons were things we could only do pre-kids. It sucks to think how many years we lost that way, but...NOTHING we can do about it now, best not to beat ourselves up, right??!? (Easier said than done, I know!!). I'm hoping that 100mg Clomid is just the push your follies needed. C'mon big fatties, show us what you've been up to in that Friday u/s!!!

Shanny said...

Seriously! Wassup wid dah waiting? Its annoying and frustrating as hell! Like we are not going through enough, gosh!

Good luck on Friday, hope you get that extra follie!

Katie said...

I hate the waiting, too. It's the worst part of this whole process. I'm not a patient person to begin with, so everything to do with IF has really tested that part of my personality. I hope that this week of waiting flies by and you have some good looking follies on Friday. Fingers crossed! :)

Littlest True Blue said...

My hubby and I were talking about all the ridiculous waiting this weekend (while waiting in the waiting room of my clinic at 7am)! I came to the realization that from this point on in life there is always going to be fear and waiting. First all the fear and waiting throughout the pregnancy, then all of the fear as your child grows up! Motherhood is going to be hard work. I think we are up for the task!!! Good luck on Friday! So far my follies are SLOW! Upped my injections again today! So I probably won't get to trigger with you:(
LTB

Jane said...

Oh, I know how you feel! I'm trying to turn over a new leaf and be very zen about the whole thing, but it's a work in progress. The last week of the 2ww and the last week before the IUI have been the hardest for me, so those are what I'm working on most. Good luck with your wait - it will be over before you know it and hopefully you'll have some nice big follies on Friday!

JC said...

Yup waiting sucks! I hope it goes by fast and you have super results at your appt!!!

Stefanie Blakely said...
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Stefanie Blakely said...

Good luck on Friday!!

AplusB said...

Fingers crossed for awesome results on Friday! Hope 100 mg of Clomid did the trick on those follies. Keep us posted!

A said...

Yah, waiting is usually not fun. You can do it, you're right!! I hope that the follie count on Friday is spectacular!

Infertility is the New Black said...

Ahh...the waiting part. We are crossing all of our virtual fingers that you do not have to wait long :) Until your magic moment keep writing and sharing your emotions...It is quite therapeutic! ICLW from ITNB Come visit us at Infertility is the New Black.