Tuesday, April 27, 2010

The Results Are In....

And I can't believe I'm even typing these words but....I'M PREGNANT!!!

The Dr. just called and my HCG at 10dp5dt is 234 and progesterone is 84, both of which he said were awesome. And I made a confession to him, which I now need to make to you guys. I totally already knew!!! Sorry to those of you I had fibbed to about testing, I never intended to test...I'm usually not a tester, I can typically hold out and with the pressure of IVF I wouldn't have been able to take a BFN.

BUT, remember this post when I said I was testing the HCG out of my system in case I had the urge to POAS. And hubby told me the line on Tuesday was basically gone but I could still kinda see it. Well, I needed that stark white absolutely no line confirmation...so after hubby left for work on Wednesday (4dp5dt) I got up and took one more test. And of course the super faint line that had showed up on Monday was back!! So now in my mind I'm like wtf, that dang trigger shot still isn't out of my body yet...and I'm 9dpo. I researched online and they said it can last up to 10dpo...but then I realized we only did half the trigger since my levels for so high! So could it actually be a BFP?!?

Well now I'm hooked, and of course when I get home from work on Wednesday I POAS again and the line gets a tiny bit darker...and I don't have to squint to see it. I didn't have any more tests so I had to wait until Thursday when I got home from work and that's when I attempted with a digital FRER...and sure enough Yes+ popped up!!! I sent the pic to hubby and told him this may actually be the real deal. We decided to keep it to ourselves until the beta, it was one thing to get our hopes up...but we couldn't risk doing that to our families only to let them down if this wasn't for sticking around at least until the beta.

We are so excited and thrilled and cannot believe how lucky we are, but at the same time it really is hard to believe. This last year has just been negative and negative and then boom, a BFP. Its really hard to let that sink in, and truly believe that this is all happening...to us...finally...almost a year to the date from our last BFP. Everything in my body wants to believe this is it for us, that all our struggles were just leading to this time around when the stars would align, but after a loss, even if it was a year ago...the doubt creeps in oh so quickly. I promised hubby to try my best to just remind myself each day that today I'm pregnant and that's all I can really do. I plan to take it step by step, and just enjoy every frickin second along the way. So next step, beta #2 on Thursday. Cross your fingers for good doubling times!!!

46 comments:

Rach said...

That is fantastic! So happy for you. Enjoy the excitement!!

AplusB said...

OMG! OMG! I knew it! Such fantastic news! Congratulations! Sooooooooo excited for you!

Katie said...

I am SO SO SO SO excited for you, girl!!! Congratulations!!!!!!! I don't think I can use enough exclamation points!!!! :)

Kim said...

Ok that was weird - I was sitting here thinking the past couple days that you hadn't posted so i went to llok and see if there were any updates from you and low and behold out came this post! I suspected your were in hiding because you tested and knew and weren't ready to share!


CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I just knew it, well I had a feeling, but I knew it!

I wish I could post jumpy guys here or something....but this will have to do!!

Can't wait til you get your next beta and see those beautiful numbers double!!

Al said...

AMAZING first beta!! So, so happy for you and happy that this WORKED! You're totally pregnant.

FX for a sticky baby and an uneventful pregnancy.

A said...

Congrats!!! And by the way, I had a feeling that you had tested + since you hadnt written for so long!! Many prayers for a happy and healthy 9 months!!

Trinity said...

HIGH-FIVE!

I had been checking my reader expecting an update from you! This is an excellent first beta, and I have heaps and mounds of hope the second one will be equally as spectacular! It's hard to NOT get excited, I know! Enjoying this day by day is a great strategy!

Heartfelt congrats! I hope we share this path for the next 9 months! ;)

Carolyne said...

Many many congratulations!

Crossed Fingers said...

Yea! I had a really good feeling about this transfer for you - I just felt calm & at peace when I read your story! I had a really good hunch you were KU! I'm so glad I was right! My fingers are tightly crossed that it sticks & you have a H&H 9 months!

Secret Sloper said...

SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! This is such fabulous news. Yay embabies, keep growing!!!

Jin said...

Yayayayayayayayayaya!

Holli said...

Ahhh!!! I had a good feeling!!! Congratulations! I hear you when you say you want to take it step by step. I'm trying to enjoy each day as well! So happy for you and your husband. :)

sienna said...

congrats! i knew it :o) hoping the pregnancy is completely uneventful :o)

2catdaughters said...

CONGRATS!!!

Ashley said...

I knew it!!! :) SOOOO happy for you! I had a good feeling that this was it for you. Congratulations!!!

R.J. said...

Holy cow!! Great news - I'm so happy for you guys!

Erin said...

Yay yay yay! You just made my day. :)

BabyWid said...

Awesome news!! I'm so happy for you!! Enjoy every moment!! Can't wait to follow on your jounrey through pregnancy into motherhood!

Dear Diary said...

OMG YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH HOW EXCITING!!!! I'm so happy for you guys!!! God bless you friend and your baby or babies lol you never know. I will pray for you!! ahhhhh how awesome!!

The Baby Race said...

So very very very excited for you! Will keep praying for a sticky, healthy baby.

SarahM said...

Whoo Hoo Congratulations!!! YAY for BFP's!!!! Can't wait to follow your exciting journey over the next 10 months ;)

JC said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!! Awesome numbers too! Congrats!!! =)

Jane said...

I just *knew* you'd get your BFP!! BIG congrats!! I'm so happy for you!

Ceejay said...

Woohoo! That's sooo exciting! Huge congrats to you and your hubby!

Kelly said...

What great news!! Congratulations!!

Leslie said...

Congratulations on a fantastic beta!!! Yeah!! I am so happy for you = ) Lots of doubling/tripling vibes for your beta on Thursday!!

Just Me...C said...

OMG CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Lol, I totally don't blame you for testing and keeping it all hush hush. I am so VERY excited for you and look forward to following you through such an amazing time. Its been a crappy day and your news actually made it so much better! I am genuinely excited for you hon!

Amanda said...

AMAZING NEWS GIRLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shanny said...

Woohooo!!!! This is soooo exciting!
Congrats girl =)

Jennifer said...

Wooohooo!! Congratulations! So happy for you! Crossing my fingers over here!

Ernie said...

Congratulations! That's freakin' awesome! I'm excited to hear about your next beta, I know it will be great!

Chelle said...

YES! I read this and curled my toes with excitement. Finally some good news in blogland!

I am so excited for you guys! Congrats! This is so wonderful. I can't wait for that second beta to confirm, and we all know it will.

I am so excited for you!

Miriam said...

Mazel tov! What wonderful news! Best of luck for your upcoming beta! Sending you lots of vibes for a sticky bean!

Happy ICLW!
~Miriam (ICLW #152) Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed

Fidgeting Gidget said...

Congrats! How exciting!

subfertilefrugalista said...

I *knew* this was going to work!! I just had such a great feeling for you! CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS!!!!! I am beyond thrilled for you!!!!

Can't wait to hear how tomorrow goes.

And as for the feelings after a loss, I can only say that it will always be there. And, finally at 12 weeks, I'm starting to come around to the fact that that's OK. I don't want to forget Mya and everything she did for us..the hope, the magical first BFP, the pure joy...but it's hard not to remember the pain, too. And anything can happen. Just take it one day at a time and enjoy THIS pregnancy for what it is. There's no reason to believe that everything won't be absolutely perfect for you!!


EEEE!! So happy for you!

wait, what? said...

Amazing!!! Congratulations!

Patrish said...

HUGE CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Littlest True Blue said...

I was sooo excited for you yesterday...but I had a feeling you already knew...you seemed kind of zen and not so stressed about the beta this time! You sneaky girl! Congrats Andrea! This is SO AMAZING! Take care MOMMA!
LTB

Browniris said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am so happy for you!!!

Maureen said...

Oh my god! I am sooo incredibly happy for you!! Congratulations sweetie. Best news ever!

Andrea said...

Sweetest Friend,

I am doing cart wheels for you!!! Think I will celebrate with a cup cake in your honor :)

What wonderful news for someone who has been a true trooper on this journey. I'm SO VERY HAPPY for you and have a smile a mile wide on my face....warms my heart.

That HCG is gonna double :) Just live in this beautiful moment honey and enjoy the happiness it brings, as you deserve every ounce of it.

Much Love,
Andrea
ps Look how many people are praying for this little bean :)

Pre-Heated Oven said...

Oh wow!!!!! I'm so excitedfir you! I knew it would happen!!!

Wishing 4 One said...

Wow I am so so so so so excited for you girl! I knew this was going to be it. Heres to a super high, at least double beta Thursday! Congrats again, awesome news! xoxoxo

Niki said...

Yay! Congrats that is so freaking exciting. I am sending you {{sticky}} dust and I can't wait to hear more about your journey!

Baby On Mind said...

Yay!! Congrats! So happy for you!

Stephanie said...

Congrats!!!! So happy for you and so exciting!!!!