The Results Are In....

And I can't believe I'm even typing these words but....I'M PREGNANT!!!

The Dr. just called and my HCG at 10dp5dt is 234 and progesterone is 84, both of which he said were awesome. And I made a confession to him, which I now need to make to you guys. I totally already knew!!! Sorry to those of you I had fibbed to about testing, I never intended to test...I'm usually not a tester, I can typically hold out and with the pressure of IVF I wouldn't have been able to take a BFN.

BUT, remember this post when I said I was testing the HCG out of my system in case I had the urge to POAS. And hubby told me the line on Tuesday was basically gone but I could still kinda see it. Well, I needed that stark white absolutely no line confirmation...so after hubby left for work on Wednesday (4dp5dt) I got up and took one more test. And of course the super faint line that had showed up on Monday was back!! So now in my mind I'm like wtf, that dang trigger shot still isn't out of my body yet...and I'm 9dpo. I researched online and they said it can last up to 10dpo...but then I realized we only did half the trigger since my levels for so high! So could it actually be a BFP?!?

Well now I'm hooked, and of course when I get home from work on Wednesday I POAS again and the line gets a tiny bit darker...and I don't have to squint to see it. I didn't have any more tests so I had to wait until Thursday when I got home from work and that's when I attempted with a digital FRER...and sure enough Yes+ popped up!!! I sent the pic to hubby and told him this may actually be the real deal. We decided to keep it to ourselves until the beta, it was one thing to get our hopes up...but we couldn't risk doing that to our families only to let them down if this wasn't for sticking around at least until the beta.

We are so excited and thrilled and cannot believe how lucky we are, but at the same time it really is hard to believe. This last year has just been negative and negative and then boom, a BFP. Its really hard to let that sink in, and truly believe that this is all happening...to us...finally...almost a year to the date from our last BFP. Everything in my body wants to believe this is it for us, that all our struggles were just leading to this time around when the stars would align, but after a loss, even if it was a year ago...the doubt creeps in oh so quickly. I promised hubby to try my best to just remind myself each day that today I'm pregnant and that's all I can really do. I plan to take it step by step, and just enjoy every frickin second along the way. So next step, beta #2 on Thursday. Cross your fingers for good doubling times!!!