Wednesday, May 12, 2010

All In a Year

So I've been a terrible blogger this past week, and I'm sorry if I'm behind on commenting. Basically I've been super on edge starting since this weekend, as I knew I was rapidly approaching the time in my pregnancy last year when everything ended. Scarily enough, the dates are working out to be exactly the same. Last year on Mother's Day I was 5w6d and we told our families, they were completely shocked and over the moon since they didn't even know we were trying. Then two days later it was all over, and I knew getting pregnant would never be the same. Fast forward exactly one year later, months of trying on our own post miscarriage, 4 iui's, 1 ivf and here we are at this Mother's Day...I was also 5w6d. I mean what are the chances that this pregnancy would line up to the day of last years, my due date is off by only 1 day.

In any case since we never made it to the first ultrasound last year, I've just been envisioning the worst about my next one...which was supposed to be next Tuesday. Yes...supposed to be since I of course freaked out last week and a super nice nurse let me change my ultrasound to this morning!! Well it turns out that all my fears and worries about everything we wouldn't see were wrong, because today we saw one beautiful little bean with a teeny tiny flickering heartbeat. It was just amazing, I of course was on edge and barely took a breath the entire ultrasound...but hubby looked on and teared up, basically the most perfect moment!

We are of course bummed that Scooter or Skeeter didn't make it, and my RE said we couldn't be sure they ever even started or what happened. And I think deep down I didn't really believe it, that first u/s lady just seemed way too wishy washy to the point that I never told anyone with any confidence we were having twins. And so hubby and I have re-named this little bean Skooter (with a K)...get it, it's kinda like a combo of the two names. I feel beyond lucky to have gotten to this point, and when I walked out of that office with my pic of little Skooter I finally realized this pregnancy is different, and everything started to feel a bit more real. I'm so incredibly thankful.

28 comments:

A said...

Congratulations, mama! Will be praying for your little family of three! (love sKooter, but the way!)

Crossed Fingers said...

I'm SO glad that your fears were not founded! I have been keeping you in my T&P since you announced your BFP! I cannot wait to read and hear more about Skooter as s/he grows up! Wishing you all the best & more!

Lookingforaplussign said...

one little sticky bean! yeah!

sienna said...

i'm so glad they let you in early so that your fears could be calmed. yaay for sKooter :o) very cute!

suchagoodegg said...

Awww, Skooter. :) So happy!

I'm so thrilled for you Andrea, and love that you are feeling calm and relief after the awesome u/s. You made it! Congrats!! xoxo

Kelly said...

I'm so glad that you got reassuring news! That PAL brain can be tough.

Ashley said...

I'm so glad they let you come in early! That was great of them. And I'm so happy things are going great. Love the new name! :)

Secret Sloper said...

I'm so happy that Skooter is strong and healthy. This one IS different. You are going to have a baby!!!

Ernie said...

Wow, what a crazy coincidence that the dates worked out to be the same as last year. I'm so glad the u/s got moved up, and that you saw the happy heartbeat! Amazing!

Rach said...

Congrats on little skooter!! So excited for you.

Kim said...

What a great nurse who let you go early and today you have your pic of your Skooter in hand, the image of the HB in your mind, the love for your LO in your heart and your baby growing in your tummy!!!! What a special day it is! Enjoy!
xoxoxoxoxox

Shanny said...

The dates coincidence is just insane! I'm glad that little skooter is doing great and I'll continue to send you positive vibes!!!! Yay for the awesome heartbeat =)

sienna said...

hey *crazy* - glad to know i'm in good company :o)

i started the baby aspirin last month after seeing a high risk obgn about my mthfr mutation. he said that he wants me to take it bc of ivf, not bc of mthfr. so, since no dr would give me a lovenox prescription, i've been popping 1 BA a day since then.

what's the protocol during ivf? stop one week prior to ER? and then resume afterwards?

Wishing 4 One said...

Oh girl I am so so so happy for you! I know how it feels hearing, in my case seeing, twins and then just having one... But i too am grateful. Yeah so so so excited for you! xoxo

Al said...

I've been wondering how you're holding up, I know early pregnancy after m/c is not easy...

Glad skooter is hanging in there and you got to see the heartbeat!! It's eerie how the dates worked out, but this time is MUCH different than last time.

I hope things keep going great..congrats!

The Steffens said...

Yay Skooter! Yay heartbeat! Yay everything!

So very very happy for you.

Dear Diary said...

I'm so happy that everything looks great!!! Post the picture of Skooter. How exciting!!!

JC said...

Yay! I'm glad you have one healthy bean in there. Go Skooter!!! I'm glad they got you in early. That's so crazy about the timing and it being exactly one year later.

barfingrainbowsandunicorns said...

Yay Skooter! That is so awesome and I'm so happy for you. And that is really weird about the timing being so similar to last year - I know that would have freaked me out too. Congrats!!!

I'm so excited about our IRL meetup too! :)

T said...

I cannot wait to see pics of Skooter (love the name)!

It is so unfair that after all this time in trying to get pregnant (and stay) you cannot just celebrate this miracle. You, your DH, and Skooter will continue to be in my prayers!

Maureen said...

Congratulations honey! So happy you were able to see Skooter's heartbeat. I'm sorry the old ultrasound tech had you confused about the two babies. Pulling for you and sweet Skooter!

Jennifer said...

Congratulations momma! I found your page through Jennifer at Thoughts from a Blonde. Your timing being almost exactly the same as last year is just crazy, but in a good way. Take care of youself & little Skooter :)

Andrea said...

Live in the moment sweet girl and just love that growing little bean. My heart is so happy for you and hubby!

Wishing you nothing but baby bliss :)

xoxo
Andrea

AplusB said...

This is really happening! I am so excited for you and Skooter :) How are you feeling?

Looking forward to seeing you in a few weeks!!

Samantha said...

I'm glad you found me. Yay for pregnancy buddies!!! I understand about how hard it is to keep up with blogger right now. I can't wait to follow your pregnancy and go through this with you!!!

Littlest True Blue said...

Yippee for early ultrasounds! And yippee for little skooter! I know what you mean about being a bit paranoid, I am constantly paranoid and freaking out and only have relief for a day or so after seeing the little heart beat! Can't wait for your next update! Hope you are feeling well!
LTB

Browniris said...

I'm so glad that you were able to see that beautiful heartbeat! Congrats!!!

Jane said...

I'm sooooooo happy for you!!! And I can't wait to hear all about your pregnancy over the next 7 1/2 months!